I've just returned from the hospital where I was unable to have my last chemo cycle , again due to an incredibly low neutrophil status....even by Dr. C's standards. [For those medically minded it was point 2] Ironically I feel fine and this morning I took a friend with a broken leg out for coffee, as you do, and I didn't need a mid day sleep or anything, so there you go, another week of taking it easy, avoiding infection, and generally trying to pass the time.I had my last consultation with Dr.C today [assuming my treatment is able to go ahead next friday] and as usual he was in one of his dismissive moods. I gave him a copy of the Suzanna Olivier book that I have found so helpful and he looked like it would be fairly low on his reading list and so I suggested he pass it on to his wife. Then he looked at Suzanna's comments on avoiding alcohol and said he didn't see any problem atall with drinking whilst on chemo as there is so much rubbish talked about the effects of chemo! I also asked about using hair dyes etc. and he said fire away as soon as I want, where as I understood from other people in my situation that you need to wait 6 months before using anything other than mild shampoo! I now have to see my GP about starting Tamoxifen in about a month's time and I will have a check up with Dr.C. in a year's time. I also have a check up appointment with the oncology surgeon in September.I have been warned about the feelings of anti climax upon finishing chemo and the feeling that after such frequent monitoring you are left to get on with your life whilst still feeling very vulnerable. With this in mind, more or less the whole of May is taken up with holiday plans for the Lake District and South Wales. If I'm going to feel miserable at least it will be in beautiful surroundings with Pete and good friends! love Pam X